I love this post by fellow meditator Brian B Baker so much. It comes at exactly the perfect timing. I have just quit my job without another “real job” lined up. I am done being deluded by society’s ploy to lure us into slavery. I have been lied to by my parents since I was a teenager, that I should not pursue my dream of becoming an artist, because being an artist would not bring me food and shelter.
Yes, I am angry. Not just angry at being lied to, but most angry at myself that I wasn’t stronger to believe in my own dreams.
“I am so angry with myself because I cannot do what I should like to do,” Van Gogh wrote in a letter as he tussled with mental illness. While he started his career as a painter quite “late” in life, he did make a career out of it (regardless of whether he made any money from it or not—the sole standard by which today’s folks judge a person’s success).
After decades of working at jobs that didn’t speak to my soul and fulfill my heart’s desires, I have been burnt out multiple times and feeling under-appreciated and unfulfilled, not to mention having millions of my cells killed by obnoxious and stupid bosses and toxic work environments.
Now I have decided to take a leap in the dark with a kind of “blind faith” for my own dreams. Yes, I do have my dreams alive and burning. I have so many creative ideas and desire to fulfill each one of them.
I appreciate the extra nudge given to me in Brian’s post—it is a reminder that we alone and our dreams are enough, because there is nothing more real that this.
“We must walk consciously only part way toward our goal, and then leap in the dark to our success.”
~Henry David Thoreau